Hi, it’s such a long time since I wrote about my personal
life. All I did was wrote about a reflection of what happens in my life,
although it’s not describing any actual fact of what really happens in my life.
This is March, at the end of March actually, and April Fools
will come right away when I spare some time to post this article.
April Fools makes me think of my own foolishness. I still
need to learn so many things in life, so many aspects in so many ways. I used
to say that Im old and tired of this world and the people in it, but maybe it’s
just me who didn’t understand the true joy of life.
When I feel really awful a couple days ago, my really close
friends, let’s say her name is Moon, cry with me and told me one little things
that makes me realize a really big things,
“ .. your love is
already broken, so let’s make a profit from that broken pieces. Give it to
anyone you met in the street, in your campus, in your life. Give it to someone
you met for the first time. Give it to some people that’s really important for
you. Your parents, your sister, your new friends, your old friends. Do the best everyday and give that broken
pieces of love to yourself everyday, too. Then sit and wait.
Your love may be
broken, but you are not. You still have yourself, your life and so many
possibility in the future.”
I told myself that what happens to me at the time is
painful, unfair and pushed myself deep into despair. It’s already broken, so
what can I do? I can’t turn back time.
But what my friends told me had enlightened me, that maybe,
maybe, Im just too blind to see myself at the time. People knew what the truth
is. Im just too bruise to understand.
It’s silly when I feel like I have lost everything in me,
when I lost him, too. I am an educated girl, with enough wealth and lots of
people who loves me.
So I gather and sorts that broken pieces of love, I gave a
really big pieces to my family, another big pieces to my friends, another big
pieces to my work and school. All the small part to everyone I know and the
people I met for the first time. And I gave a really big pieces, the biggest
one, to myself.
“ It’s not healthy at all to love someone and
present all your world to him. It’s so suffocating for him and for you, too.”
So I raised my head even when my heart still in sorrow.
Im still have so many things to learn, so please God, help
me. If I am really that kind of good person my friends told me, make me an even
better human beings so I can make this world a better place to live for
everyone, even the one who makes me a fool.
