Dead Eyes

Your gaze floating around the town

That light brown eyes sparkling in the middle of sunshine

‘Is it time?’ your mind said softly

A glittering watch on your right hand. A black bag on your left shoulder

You remember your beloved Mom, your sister, and the love of your pregnant wife

Your step stops in front of a bunch of school girls, waitin’ for school bus

Your smile makes them safe. You must be a good person

-          The streets a wrecked. Total mess. Cry for help echoes everywhere. Lungs. Golden hair. Red hair. Ear. Heart. Scattered. The pureness of life. And a light brown eyeball rollin’ around. 

His dead eyes. His dead eyes. His dead eyes.

Inglorious Black Horse

There were times when my mind lose grip

And my finger hit the pause button

And I do nothing for life

I dont live, I just breath and eat.

It’s a long vacation

From the agitation.

And my name will rise once again as the inglorious black horse who beat all the champion.

I steal when you dont look

I rip your heads off

I talk, move and think inhumanely.

Until that monster wake up,

I’ll delay all the plan.

And you will watchin’ me sunken in a deep water. Like I’ll never surfaced again, forever.

But please believe me,

All I need is a little bit of spark and you will soon lose all your bet.

This inglorious black horse will eat you alive. 

Database

I put so many effort a night before

To put this world into real words

To let my feelings swings from your window to your door

Somebody please open it

I dont want things to mess up

So I let my feelings fucked up

But this is enough,

Because you never feel enough

I put an extra smile and extra hope

Just wait in front of it, my heart could burst

Well, I guess you won’t leave me like this

With some data about your dark past and sins

I could tell your panic mood is high now

Your database about to burst

Well, You guess I won’t leave you like this

You think I’ll stay forever although we’re not lover

I put some really good effort to put it all into words,

I knock your door and your tired face blossoming

This database about to leave you,

And you still dont have a clue.    

I Told You We Are Lovers

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Dont pull that line between us

We are lovers

When you decide you will pull that line, it will ruin you and me, it will ruin everything

It will ruin the love we have

I can be a soldier, but I wont fight for our love if you dont want me to hold out

I can be a doctor, but I wont cure this ill feeling if you dont want me to heal

Somehow I lost in your sad deewy eyes, trying not to look at me, your lips tighten and my hearts bleedin’.

We are not strangers but I dont feel like Im invited anymore

We are a lovers but I dont feel like you like that idea anymore

And somehow I know Im the clown here

Im the silly one

And you laugh out loud, maybe because Im not good enough, maybe because you know someone will come and stole your heart away

Somehow I lost in your deep excuses, your scream and shout, your terrible smile when you finally pull that line between us

“We’ll remain friends. “

I lift my head up and your face suddenly blew up.

The empty bullet falls crazily into the floor.

My hands trembling hard and I whisper my last goodbye,

“I told you dont ever, ever, ever pull that line ..”

Big Question

Someone may kill for the sake of peaceful life

Someone may kill for the pride of a country

Someone may kill for the love of their life

Someone may live for the devil inside their heart

Someone may live for the pain they cause

Someone may live for the agony and doubt

What will I die for?

Now, what did I live for?

Some people says that not every people can do something big and end it beautifully

But some people also says that not every people can accept their own mistakes and still live positively

Some people lead their lives big enough to be called a hero

Some others shittin’ their own lives by killin’ every chances they encountered

I do wonder,

And some of you actually wondering, too.

Do we live as we want it, do we live as who we are, do we mean something in this life?

Will we die with ease, will we die with a smile in our faces, will we die meaningfully?

I start think about it.

And I know all of you too.