FRIENDS

I dont think I need friends to live. God only says that it’s impossible for us to live alone, but He ain’t say that we should be friends with other people. Why is it so hard to understand? Won’t it be easy if we live our life alone? We don’t get hurt because other people lies, We don’t tears because of disappointment, We don’t tell bullshit to each other. We just don’t.

Im a grown up. Yes, of course, Im a grown up. And I fall into a slump. It’s hard for me to live my life and I already think to end it as fast as possible. I dont say I can leave you, But I say that we should separate at that time. I dont remember how those accidents triggered such an ugly events in my life. Did I’d make a wrong decision? We hurt too much until we couldn’t say sorry anymore. We tried to reached the end of this peak, But it’s just too far. So I let it down and falls. Way into the slump.

We have our happy day. We have everything we thought we have. Nowadays I still smell those happiness float in the air, memories comes and goes, but nothing like us back into it anymore. I lost you and I think it’s a right decision I lost you.

Yes, I thought we’ll last forever, You and I together.

But I just realize that it’s the devil’s game. All tough and deceiving, All that happiness that we build over other people pains. With a cherry on top, We thought it’s a right decision to lost God and faith. Only us in this world, Fighting over our enemy with only bullet and guns called ‘trust’. The truth that we didn’t know is the enemy lies within ourselves. How can we say about ‘trust’ when we ‘lie’ over anything? We aren’t fine at that time. We just laugh to cover our real feelings. We just thought we need each other because of that special feeling we had.

When I say I’ve been poisoned by Devil’s whisper, Will you trust me, too?

I hate you. I love you too much until I can feel every inch of my vessel didn’t like you anymore. My soul becomes jealous of your existence. You’ve changed too much and Im not ready. I like the humble and warm you. Not the perfect and cold you.

I hate you. I have to say I hate you.

I hate you because you’re being too perfect and I want it too. You’ve become so much great and I want it too. You’ve become so much cocky and yet I want it too.

You have all the things I want.

But you lack one things so important until I can’t help myself but hate you more.

It’s sincerity.

It’s loyality.

It’s solidarity.

I have it all when I dont have yours.

I dont think I need to be friends with anyone. Since friends is someone who can betray you so much when you dont expect it at all.