Maria

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There were sometimes, when Maria asked herself, what would she become? She often think maybe live as a whore will be heaven for her, She can’t deny that she always thought maybe she’s born to be a bitch.

An ordinary man will never satisfy her. She’ll always craving for more, more and more. Without knowing what she was looking for. That’s why she doesn’t have any happy relationship. It’s all fake and sadness and tears and lies and whatever it can be.

She’s not asking for happiness, well, because she have to pay for too much price since she never does any good to the people who loves her. She only left them with hope, and fly like some anonymous bird, die in the bright light of sunshine.

She will never live a good life, Maria always believe that. When she become someone else than this wrecked girl she is, it means she already reach her limit, and her time is almost up.

Well, Maria does know how to become a God. Just do anything she please, gettin’ fuck by some neighbourhood nerdy with an angelic face, all black liquid and white fluid in one place. Here it is, applause for her show.

She’s just a bitch.

And a bitch have to stay as a Godless woman, who’s tangling in sin and tears, or the world will come to an end. Someone has to do the dirty jobs, right? Since all the pure and innocent girl have to stay alive for the man who’s cowardly enough to take responsibility of what they have done to the bitch.

And that’s why she doesn’t have any real man.

Because there was none. They all die. God took them because they’re too good to live in this dirty and rotten world.

Do they?      

Empty Road To The Future

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In this empty road to the future, I realize that there’s no space for you

It’s just me

With my foolishness as a young lover of yours, pretend that you’re not engaged and ready to start a happy family with her

And still hold your hands tight, like it’s the only thing left in my world

In this empty road to the future,  I hesitate, whether to run without looking back forever or whether to run back into your arms so we can be together

What will I do? To you? To us?

Pretending your love only belongs to me is not enough, when that silver ring in your finger start burnin’ my dreams, bring me back to reality

Ah .. I can’t do this.

In this empty road, I know that there’s no us, even from the start

Because in this empty road to the future, I stand still with an empty heart

But I keep going.

Without looking back,

Forever. 

Your Girlfriend

When your skinny girlfriend slap me in the face, I dont feel anything. Im sorry, but I really dont think she has the right to saw my angry face. I will just present her with my stoic face. Like I dont love you. Like I never hurt by her overexcessive words towards me. Like I dont care about a thing in the world.

When your pretty girlfriend called me “slut”, I accept it with a big heart, because I have a bigger boobs than her, if thats what you see in me. She try to hurt me more by saying this, “You’re no good than an old bitch whose trying to stay young by putting on too much makeup!”. She try to make me looks ugly, which I already am. She’s tried to pull me down, wreck my life and step on my pride. But I must ask this to her, “Is that gonna change the fact that your boyfriend is not satisfy with you, that’s why he’s cheated on you, with me, a girl who’s fat, ugly and literally, a bitch?”

When your perfect girlfriend start talking bad things and spread some unbelievably false rumour about me, I start laughing because it’s so cute. She’s so cute. A little kitty who’s trying to mark her territory with her pee only. Oh, it’s so cute. What an innocent kitty. “Are you happy, now?”

When your mad but beautiful girlfriend trying to take my life away from me, Im not trying to defend it at all. Well, she looks like she never have that kind of life, so I gave it to her out of pity. Is that wrong? She wants my twisted and blurry life. I cant do anything, right? “How is it? Im asking, Will you be able to hold on to live in that kind of harsh life, Princess?”

 

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Must I say this?

That she looks so pathetic ? That she looks like she didn’t have any confidence against me? That she looks very uninteresting in that kind of behaviour? That she looks like an old-lady whose trying to chase all the sexy and young girl from her front door?

Well, I guess I’ll keep it for myself.

Hasta la Vista, Baby!

Afternoon with God

God ..

Where are you?

I miss you.

I miss you so much, till I cheat behind you.

With a man with so much humour and my friends said that he’s the humour itself.

“Well .. you do it once, do it twice, and there will be no end, Girl.”

I know it, God

So just, please, I beg You, let my one and only comes. So I will not do that anymore.

“You always said that, Girl.”

Thats just because You are the cunning fox, God.

You really hate me, right? You want me to suffer, right?

“Now you know. So just accept this fate and move on. You will gain your strength, even though it will be another sad page in your book of life.”

Well, I have too many sad pages. I dont any happy pages. Why would You still holdin’ on to my happiness? Why? Why?

“Because you’re not ready for it, Girl. And you know it.”

... silence. 

Creepy Beauty

Im living in the environment where pretty people is alive and the rest .. are zombie. Haha, What I mean is, pretty people really have this ability to make everything easier for them. Easy to find job, easy to fallin love, easy to fucked up, too.

Well, not all of them, but most of them are like that.

How do I know?

That's easy. Im part of them too, for quiet some time. No! Not because Im pretty or what, it's because of my job. My friends were all a beauty and I am the innudecent beast. But thats not what matters now.

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I find that being a pretty people .. is a bit creepy.

It's like you found something so beautiful and rare, and sparkling, and blinding, and suddenly it took your life away! They're like the curse medallion on the fantasy movie! Ahh .. maybe Im over-exagerrated, but it's really what happened to people around me. 

Pretty people tend to come and gone like a wind. You can't never catch them. They will fly from one place to another, spread the joy of beauty to the world. 

But I found that life is lonely. So lonely 'till it chills out your bone in the night.

Im saying this pretty people here is not just a girl, but boys, too.

They suck up your soul and live their life from that, if you know what I mean.

They are .. creepy. 

Creepy beauty. 

   

Telephone Box

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You cant leave the telephone box, if you still trying to bring back whats gone

Dont you know that what's gone will still gone, even though you cry your eyes out of it? You can't bring it back. And you know that it's the truth that you've been avoid of all the time.

I can't leave my telephone box too, 'cause I still trying to recalled what happened in the past. I can't let it go that easily. I'll still push the hold button, even though there's no one there.

 Im alone.

Will you leave this telephone box with me?

Will you take my hands and brings me out to see the world?

Who are you?

The one who will make me put this telephone and ended up this connection I have with my painful past?