Twenty Something

Im 23 years old and my life about to turn around into something unbelieveable

Im 23 years old and yet I feel so old at heart but young at mind

Im 23 years old and Im still learning how to be a good human being

Im 23 years old and sometimes I just dont want this year to leave me

Im 2 or 3 years old when my father starts beatin’ me, and he beat me good

At first, it was just a small smack in my cheek, then it grows bigger everytime

Im 23 years old when I realize how my life is really messed up

Im 8 or 11 years old when my childhood friends told me that wearin’ a skirt is not allowed

He loose it off when I played around in his room

Im 23 years old when I realize that he’s my own brother from different mother

Im 15 or 16 when I have my first kiss

We make it out in my boyriend’s car, after he drive her girlfriends home

Im 23 years old when I know that he just raped her inside the same car that night

Im 20 when I got into the college I want

Im 21 when I drop out from the college I want

Im 22 when I got into the boring job

Im 23 when I realize Im just an ultra trash

And soon I’ll be 24

I hold my breath and cry

A big dark hole never filled within’ me

Never.