Goodbye XXX

This essay is inspired by the writer’s true feelings

For him who shaken my heart, once.

If you need me, Im just one call away.

I woke up this morning,

Only to realize that not even a trace of your scent left in my bed

Not even our photograph inside my phone

Not even our laugh

Not even our idea and dream

How cruel time is

Robbed away my precious feelings

And how cruel you are

Left me behind like a broken china vase

You did nothing to fixed anything that fell apart between us

I was mad at first

We shared every hope, dream, every stories that happened in our life

I knew never in my life I’ll met someone like you again

You owned my respect, my attention and my feelings

Until this day, I couldn’t grab any reasonable reason

of why we grew apart

You just dont seem like you used to be

Maybe you grew tired of me

Or maybe your fear of lovin’ someone like me has took you away at last

Im just a friend, a very good one

An idealist, a smarties, a red flower grown in a desert

But never a type of girl you want to be loved

You see?

I know you just like the back of my hand perfectly

Why?

Because maybe I was hoping that we could end all of these perfectly

Hey, you

Should I pick what’s left between us?

Although you dont seem to care

Although you will runaway again

But this hands trembling hard

Tryin’ to do the impossible is not possible

The many years apart has healed the torn heart

I am ready to fly in a new world of challenge

Im sorry I leavin’ you behind

Maybe I am the one who left first, after all

And all I felt was a slice of regret

Of not havin’ you beside me

Of lettin’ you down the slope

All the way around the hill

Into your own complicated life

Im sorry I couldn’t saved you at the time

One of us has to say sorry

In honour of what once happened between us

Just so all that won’t ended up in vain

Vanish into thin smoke like other meaningless things

You know?

 I still treasure you

Although it’s all in the past

And we both have to move on as far as we can
To fulfilling the goal of our DNA as you said

To reach our purposes of living

To really understand why we both met and then separated

I woke up this morning,

Only to realize that you came in my dream again

I dream of your scent, your laugh

I dream of what now really remains between us

Memories

of once happy and innocent times.